my life's getting more and more pathetic. i just follow my daily routine doing the same thing over and over again. sometimes i wonder why i have to end up like this. there are so many emotions floating in my mind. but how to pen them down: i don't know. i look forward to tomorrow with both fear and hope. will things improve. or will my life go on like that forever..



thursday. school was ok. i had alot of laughing gas in me though. laughed soo much. had rollerblading for track and field. i kinda blacked out for a while . suddenly the whole place looked very orange then i started seeing black dots everywhere. the coach said maybe my body tempreture was going up instead of down to cool me down. said i was not pespiring unlike everyone else. so i sat down and rested. mel and me walked out a usual but this time with the hope of seeing that montfort guy. as my guts told me. we din see him. friday. met mel after school to go french school. stupid.the french school was like closed or something . i only managed to see like one cute guy. poor mel saw none. but i don't think he's like the crush-able type. feel me? dumbness la.. we waited for like 2 and a half hours . then we went to the mcdonald opp. montfort. then walked to the montfort busstop. no cuties. bummer. so there goes my plt. not 1. had family dinner at nite. went to the zi cha place in ang mo kio. uncle richard was sitting beside me so i was very entertained. he told me to come to him whenever a boy treats me bad. "sarah. if any boy tries to harm my little princess i'll squash him like this." he took his can and crushed it. aww my hero haha. then there was this guy quite old who just came upt o uncle richard and shook his hand. started talking to him like he was a superstar. duno why but this happens to uncle richard alot. i mean how many ang-mo's get shaked by the hand everywhere he goes. kinda creepy huh. maybe he has some magnectic force to pull people to him or something. wierd. then as we were about to leave, that guy came over and hugged uncle richard. omg! i was so freaked out by it man! scary! my jaw just dropped. my mom had to like nudge me so it wasn't so obvious. oh well then today we had training. played floorball and street soccer. got hit by the soccer ball twice. shit