the last i remembered, i was happy

my mp3 is spoilt!!! T.T
one side of my earpiece so doesnt work la.

im sick of all these anons adding me )= all with the same agenda.

heyhey!!

i pray its not like that

yesterday went to church with may in the morning.. suprisingly fun hah.
then had long johns for lunch.. came home then found mummy and hannah on the bed with alooot of new clothes and stuff!!!
all for me! mummy rocks my world la.
went to the gym for 40 mins b4 dinner..
was sooo boring last night! dunno y.

mummy sent me to school today, and i was sleeping in the car. dunno why iv been so tired recently. so school was fine la..
oh! except i got caught for my skirt AGAIN my mrs s.
doesnt she get sick of asking people to kneel down to check the length of skirts???
so xue'e, joanne and myself spent like 15-20 mins outside class unpicking skirts.
i din unpick though. just pulled down until my skirt almost burst. haha!!
so i passed english test. LUCKY LA!!!! only 4 people in class passed.. it was freaking hard. so ya, iv got no english remedial. yay.
math was good cos no translation today. HAWHAW instead, we went through test papers.. and i passed both!! whoots!!
afternoon assembly was a dread! sitting in the un-airconed sports hall to watch the student leader investigure. SO HOT!!! was talking to nicole charmiane and siti most of the time though. dont even know wad happened during the whole event..
got called out to see ms tee along with weiting and hongrui after assembly..
learnt that the school has registered for us to take chinese o lvls along with the others. haha! me? chinese? o lvls???
so this year its math and chinese o lvls..
hohoho.
so will be having facial tonight.. its been a long time..
since last year, hardly had the time to call for another session.. but recently my face has been a bitch. all my pimples and all popping out again.
and mummy says its like shit. so yea i have to go tonight )=
im sure aunty sally would be happily poking away. -.- and its gonna hurt. i hope i dont cry!! guess i'll be going to school with a swollen face tmr.
tata!!

tell me why i even bothered

2nd post of the day thank you.
so as expected, im bored, lonely and sianed in this dark murky house.
hannah's gone to pick mummy frm airport [ooo yayyy new indulgence frm thailand! i hope mummy shopped for me] and they'l only be back after 2am. wait have i said that? oh well.
had to call for mcdelivary cos i couldnt find anything to eat and was dying of hunger.
and now, im suffering with two horribly painful ulcers in my mouth.
still havent touched homework and dont intend to.
i wonder wad people do when they'r bored.
i miss town!! havent smelt the town atmosphere in soo long. miss the squeezing through the crowd thing. but most of all. i miss shopping.
ok its over and out. goodbye

IM TIRED.
so i just came back from ballet..
woke up today with a cold.
so sneezed my morning away. haha.
then filed my schoolwork. haha at i did something useful.
dint manage to do homework though. heck.
then recieved a call frm darlings.. went out to meet them at j8 b4 ballet..
maylin left first though. then went to take neoprints with wenyi. HAHA yea havent taken them in a long time.
ok then left for ballet.
as usual i sweat aloooot.
which means im now too tired to go to the gym so i'll skip it today.
got scolded my ms mccully cos i couldnt lift my leg up during devlope bridge.
tsk irritating. hah then i tried and i almost slipped and fell.
ms mcully's expecting frm me is totally rising! hah so i will make sure i keep up.

now, i just realized iv got no dinner. on top of that, i'll be alone in the house till like 1.30am when mummy comes home. )=
pity me

IM HOME!

hahhahaahhaaa.
school was soso la.
chinese was spent as usual with hunaglaoshi spending most of the time lecturing us. [not that it has an effect] haha though i kinda feel bad not doing his homework )=
so after school went to kopitiam outside school for lunch with ben and maylin.. been so long since we'v had lunch together. THEN i decided to go home b4 shooting started.
so got home, then headed for the gym, heheh im so keeping this up man. then after that had my bath to make me smell good haha then left for school.
ok im done.
see you!



hah i found something again. this video taken in carls jr. last year with my cousins and uncles.. haha!! 100% funny

AH tell me how!!!
i cant sign into msn, my dumb internet keeps disconnecting me, my studies in a mess, i havent revised in forere. my whole life's turning upside down now!

ok so i tried to upload my pictures yesterday, but blogger wasnt being cooperative. and now, all i need is to press the "upload picture" button and i get disconnected. hah so much for good luck.
anyway.
i set 2 alarm clocks this morning so i would definately wake up. and luckily i did haha!
so school was its usual boringness except math is making me go bonkers!!
im kinda regretting my action for accepting the thru train offer.. kinda feeling the pressure to do well thing.
like every test, i break out in sweat cos im so scared i'll fail. especially math. goodness me. im gonna be taking math o level this year [i get to take it this year so i have a subject less next year] and i cant even do something as basic as translation on the topic tranformation! so mrs thang [math teacher] flared up today cos many people din do homework. and i was feeling guilty cos i was one of them hah. BUT the thing is its not that i din wanna do it. i simply dont understand! and she's going so fast, i just give up listening to the lesson. now all thats happening is that im drowning in math )= worst of all, cos of this thru train thing, i wont have my n level cert, which is a disadvantage cos then i'll have nothing to fall back on incase of any unfortunate happenings during olvls nxt yr.
howHOWhow am i gonna get myself back on track??

so much to do so little time.
i just relaized i lost my chemistry notebook so HAHA how the hell am i gonna survive chemistry classes tell me??
and my fucking study room is in sucha mess i can barely walk around without bumping into anything.
so first on my list is to clear my study room. but my cold-blooded self-centred sister refuses to budge so i can pick up my stuff. why is the world so harsh on me!!
next, i gotta file my school stuff and everything's in a mess and hah i cant file cos again, my sisters sitting in front of the files. someone murder her please.

ok so before i start going crazy and showing everyone the not so pleasent side of me [haha] i think i better go find someone or something else to vent my frustration on.
meanwhile. everyone, please pray for me!!

IM MENTALLY PREPARED )=

this is not gonna be a happy rainbow in the sky post.

firstly, for some wierd reason, cos of how shitty i feel, i decided to pour myself a hot cup of water so i can feel all droopy and worthless. BUT its so not helping. instead, its making me feel more stupid and disgusting cos the hot waters making me sweat. -.-
someone explain to me why i have this sudden moodswing!

secondly, my study room is in a mess and im almost fainting just looking at it. papers everywhere, my bags stacked one on top of another, all my schoolwork abandoned, [the only thing worth mantioning is that i managed to finish one english homework worksheet!!].

thirdly, this years cny doesnt seem very cny-ish. its been so boring. visiting just a couple of houses and recieving very little hong baos. and not to mention, im gonna grow fat. although i did control myself and only couldnt resist the cny goodies tonight at laoyi's house. so i ate like 3 pineapple tarts, 1 plate of dry mee siam, 1 bowl of soup, and ya. thats pretty much it. and now im having a bad stomache. no idea why though.

fourthly, mummy's leaving me tml to go thailand shopping!! AH how can this be happening! just as i need retail therapy to cure my moodiness [however its spelt] mummy's leaving for thailand and leaving me in lonely singapore till saturday. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

and lastly! im feeling so unloved and left alone please! someone slap me awake !!

cow im proud to say i'v finally gotten over you !

havent posted in forever!
so i'll just start with saturday.
went to watch sisters tennis training. and boy was i bored!!! sitting there and watching people hit balls. HAHA so i was there whining like crazy to mummy. then after that went for lunch.
totally forgot where we went to la.
ANYWAY thats not the point. the point is. *drumroll* i had to wake up at 6.30am on a saturday morning! AH insane or wad??
then had ballet. everyone's on pointe already!! cept sumei brintha michelle me and yinghui.. nvm la. i rejoined only last year so i have to be patient :/ ballet that day was good! sweat so much i think i could feed i whole crowd of people with the amount of sweat there was. but ew who would drink my sweat! GROSS!!
then went towning with mummy and sister. bought alot of clothes!! HAHA funfun.
i miss town

sunday.
met maylin in the morning for church and bible study..
then went to novena to shop for her samsam's gift.
then met mel to go watch the soccer thing..
2-2 (=

monday.
attire check!!
ok i pissed with mrs *
caught my socks! haha but nvm la. thats how i discovered that high socks are cute!!
so i'll be wearing high socks all the way till friday!
k then after school went home..

tuesday
attire check again..
got caught for skirt even though i was freaking long
they might as well ask us to wear those hawaiin long flowy skirts -.-
ah!! then had banmian after school with darlings..
poot! our 1 yr coming!! love u!
went to hougang to buy my rose making materials.. then the lady demonstrated to us..
so we spent a looooong time there choosing the things and all.. then went to buy chocs and sweets. ah had fun la..
so then came home then realized that i cant fold roses.
so now mel and joel are so making fun of my dumbness


happy valentines darlings!!!!! love me like i love u!

right. so im sick of typing all my sob-sob-stories of my oh-so nothing with cow.
so hopefully this would be the last one.
no need for me to introduce cow again i guess. all these months of conversations.
these past 2 weeks of chatting has set me thinking.
the thoughts sent me back to last yr. when everything except one thing was so different. we were able to converse eye to eye, laugh and have fun like any other friends do. only thing that i had was my heart thumping so hard almost every second he was there.
then every school holiday seemed to repel us further away frm each other.
into the second half of the year. things went real bad. downhill. no more happy conversations, and i had to wait for just one sentance to make me happy. and even then everything to me was a mess. and it hurt.
but that wasnt the worst. hah. worst still after the end yr exams. not even a single word would be exchanged. and now. its broken down to nothing. just thinking of this makes me feel so dejected. many a time i find myself fantacising the impossible.
then i decided to be brave. i revealed to him wad had been kept a secret. i hoped it will improve. yet i set 2 visions. one, i wished things wud stay the same. two, everything to break down to nothing. sad to say, number 2 is taking place right now. i guess no words can describe wad my deprived depressed and tired heart is going through now. i never ever wanna fall like this again. so deep and so one sided.
and now. even the chats online are strained and gone.
if only someone understands the strain i put on myself.
as i jot down the chornicles, i realize that every string of communicaton between us has perished. but one thing is for sure. no matter how hard i try, the feelings i have towards this cow, have not tarnished. in fact. as we drift, the feelings grow deeper.
but now it has come to the point where i have no choice but to believe in wad fate is giving me. the end maybe this is the cue for me to cut off all links. cos the orange blinks at the bottom of my moniter is gone. cow, one last time. i love you

crycrycry. sorry if iv been a pain in the neck.
things arent going well.