my internets working again!!
wahaha.
ok so. i fell sick on my birthday aka christmas.
just cut the cake then went to visit the 3 laoyi's..
so much for the saying "your birthday is your big day"
then post christmas was nothing intresting..
met up with aaron and hongrui the day before.. haha. was fun..
was still sick.
then yesterday, mummy brought me for my b.h.i interview thing. but nah. i'm gonna reject it.
they want me to buy my own set of make up for the course.. plus a pair of 3 inch heels for modelling lessons. plyus i wont like get a project straight away.. i'v gotta go audition for the company who wants the advertisement or show.
yea.. then went to the new cathey.. bought tickets for charlottes web..
went for the movie.. haha was touching!
then went shopping!
mummy bought like 2 freaking sets of jewellery!! then she bought a pair of shoulder duster earrings for me *beams*
shopped round the place a bit more then mummy said we shud ge to numnewurbanmale to take a look at the stuff. but! she went there for the guys! notice how the num staff are all hot guys. hawhaw.so went in and they were all so friendly. so mummy was like joking and teasing them and all. made them bring her so many flipflops to try but in the end she din get any. -.- so bad rite. but she bought me a pair of havaiana sandles and my sis a pair of havaiana heels. we were in the shop pratically till they closed the doors. hah!!
so yea.. was so much fun with my dearest family yesterday. and as quoted by the num guy.
"i have a modern mum (=" so cute la the way he said it.
HAHA ok sarah singing out. goodbye!

yoyo people of the world.
ok the dumbest thing has just happened. i lost my memory card chip!!! so like without that its quite impossible to upload all my pictures. damn!!
ok so my birthday sucked bigtime..
fell sick in the morning.. so my birthday was fucked up.
just cut my cake, then went to visit the three laoyi's and thats it!!


so ya my life is so boring now i shall stop talking to save your eyes frm rotting frm this post.
lol back when i find my card reader

AHHHHHH I"M BACK!
ok i'm back frm camp. i guess no one even know i went! LOL
ok so lets start frm way long ago when weeming gugu was in singapore ok.


went to play pool the next the day after the wedding.
was super fun!!
oh! and i sneaked rae in! muaha! we were all like standing at the counter, then suddenly the lady just lfted her head then asked me. erm is this girl here 16? lucky my response was fast enough so i just shot back with the confused expression. "erm ya of course." LOL i was lie laughing to myself cos i myself is not even close to 16!! like i'm only turning 15 tml? haha so ya that was coolness.
here are some pics frm the pool-ing thing.
































ok then after that we headed to the airport. slacked there then left to go to pasir ris for the dinner..


next day, we went christmas shopping!!
went to marina square...
then the highlight of the day was the stop in macdonalds!!
the guy serving us was super cute!!!
ah! i was melting! i was so tempted to go up to him and ask to take aicture with him. but hah my guts failed me.
so ya went around shopping after our pit stop at mac d (wad gugu calls macdonalds. i was so stoned at first when he said mac d.) then continued shopping. THEN we decided to head back to mac d again!!! HAHA!!! so went in and that guy was already changed back into his casual wear. but the wierd thing was that he was still hanging around the counter.
so i was kinda glancing at him every one in 5 seconds kindda thing. haha!
oh ya. and as we were walking in esplanade, this lady approached us and asked us to write our new year wishes on the ball that would be thrown into the waterbay front on the newyears countdow.. whee.
so the pictured for that day



































next day was sentosa.
ok i'm running out of time cos i'v got christmas gathering with family.
so here's the plan. 'll just post all the pictures.












































































ok!!! so i'v gotta go!!!
continue with the rest when i come back later on!!!

its the end.
i'v decided that i have to forget bout this crush.
causing me too much pain and heartaches. seriously.
but its a pity cox i really do love him. i felt tonight. when finally we talked, it was like a rainbow painted over me. i was jumping and so delighted. i know i love him. i just do. but wad to do? i'm sucha fucking wimp. dont even dare to open my mouth to confess.
like that lo. just let something i was so sure of go. silly but ya a drop of tear is like dropping down my face now. and now a whole puddle.
to think i devoted so much time. ahh!! i'm so fucking stupid!!
now just thinking of the "so much" that has happened since the beggining of the year.. its so sad that i have to forget it all. its like this cow has been a part of my life all these while. and he's been on my mind all the while. now just forcing him out just seems so bloody hard and dumb after all the devotion. but i gues it has to be done.
if i just had a chance to tell him how i felt it would be great. haha but thats just me dreaming.
now its so hard to keep the tears frm flowing espacially with weeming gugu beside me making it impossible to just burst out crying like that. ah this is so painful!!
why did i even fall in the first place??
some people may tell me to just continue persisting and that karma would work its way and it will all come back to me.. but i dont feel the same. karma is just another excuse for someone to keep holding on.
ok i think there is no need for me to continue with this post. i'm giving up without even trying and thats fuck.
i failed because i never tried. let this be just the one big setback and mistake i'v made so far.
so here goes.
GOODBYE COW
HELLO SARAH NOW SINGLE AVAILABLE AND SITTING IN CAFES LOOKING AT GUYS
loveyouso. it will never change. the part of my heart that was for you will always be there. now just let me delete my memory from you. maybe restore it in a different prospect. bye cow.

i'm crying for someone worthless again.
cow stop doing this to me.

pictures not in order!! i screwed the whole bloody thing!!!


















me and rae in the wedding thinggy



















me and lovely tuayi *whoot*



















cousin muack



















the bride and groom *newlyweds* loveydovey tsktsk


















neices with the batupahat queens




































weeming gugu aka shawn aka mr batupahat























me and yiyi

















me mummy hanah



















overpouring of love

goodmorning world!!!
todays post is gonna be longlonglooong!!
updating bout yesterday and taiwan trip..
but the pictures frm taiwan are still rotting in mummy's fone. hah.


yesterday was ultra fun.
woke up ealy to help tidy house..
then went out for lunch with cousins and all..
then went j8 to shop a bit for mummy's stuff.. then went home to play!!1 ahah! had so much fun with rae!!
then we recieved the call that laoyi's and all have arrived.. so we went to meet them then followed by dinner.
oh b4 that i gotta vent this out. i cried in th car like crazy cox of mummy. laoyi and all were lost and i was trying to help so i just whispered something bearly audible to mummy and she shot back "SARAH CAN YOU SHUT UP!!" omg i was boiling. its so bitchy!!! just shotting at me like these. and!! i'm sure i din affect any hearing or anything pls!! then when she put down the fone i explained to her why i told her wad i did and how i expected it to help.. but no she refused to admit she was in the wrong and continued talking to the other kids like i din exist. i was crying and shaking so badly and my eyeliner was smudging and i was so afraid when i got the car to meet them.. i was afraid mummy would start telling everyone how thinggy i was. hah but mummy was guilty. she tried talking to me and all. so ya. i just let it go.
irritating la sometimes.. i know it wasnt my fault.
okok then we went out for dinner.. then went to rae's house to slack..
here's some pictres frm yest. b4 i go on about taiwan..












































































ok now for taiwan..
ok so like on the first night mumm's distributer brought us for bubble tea .. they say the ones in singapore suck and i totally agree now!! even their milk tea there is way better than the ones here..
their bubbles are like soft yet not soggy so ya ultimately, it rocks!! wahaha
then the next day we went up into the mountains..
went to a beer brewery.. at my first taiwan sausage.. honestly, i dont really like it.. all hard and oily..
then after that went to visit the 921 1999 earthquake affected sites..
we even went into one of the houses affected by the quake.
goodness! once you step into the house, you go weak!! your whole head spins and its so hard to walk!! but it was cool la..
ok then we went to the amusement park there..
during one of the tribal performances, this hot guy performing actually asked me up to perform with him!! i was like so happy!! LOL then he even held my hand all.. and now i miss him so.. my dearest tribal sweetheart
ok then we checked into out hotel in the mountains.. haha so cool!!
next morning went hiking..
but the funniest thing was!! i din have my sport shoes!!! and i climbed the freaking mountain in my pumps!! haha! it was so hilarious!! but the hike was damn fun!!
then we headed back to taichung..
in the evening went to their night market.. which is like a permanent pasa malam. (is that how its spelt??) ok bough a few thinggys..
the next day was spent at the museum and shopping..

ok next we headed down to taipei..
the days there were just shopping shopping shopping.. so wad describes shoping better than shopping???? SHOPPING!!! muahaha!! ok so here my trip to taiwan (= tried to summarize it as much as possible..

missed you all the while..
but coming back to singapore made everything go bad again..

ok so i got distracted the whole of the morning.
but first let me talk about matter that has affected me for 10years. and that is my sister.
ignore this is u want.


i cannot believe we are of the same blood. to be even connected to her is the biggest curse in the world.
the sight of her when she gives those fucking-disgusting-think-she-knows-it-all-look turns me off. she makes my blood boil. her voice makes my head spin. her presence makes my skin tighten. to think i share the air i breathe with her makes me never want to breathe again.
and to think all these while i'v been caring and showing all my concern.
all she ever takes me for is someone who takes care of her when mummy's gone.
someone who comes as a last resort. someone whom she thinks she can take advantage of just because i'm older and have to give in to her. somebody tell me are all sister like this? is this how a sister is supposed to be? no fucking respect at all. she never ever thinks of my needs or my prefrences. everything revolves around her.
she has to be right in everything.
everytime she hurts me. all i hear is a little squeak of "sorry" and thats all i get. after that she expects things to go back to normal. she expects me to forget the pain she has inflicted on me. while on the other hand, i get hell even if i so much as touch her a little harder than supposed to. what? she's the queen? do i owe her anything? now even my usage of the computer has to revolve around her. my mother, who refuses to get wireless so we can all get to use the computer at the same time has just set a rule that each person only gets 45mins to use the computer at each time. what fucking logic is this?? like please. all she ever does is to go to her stupid 456.net to play those disgusting games which i think she enjoys only because she can steal the computer away from me even it if were for awhile.
now thats like only one small part of everything.
her leaving her plates unwashed and expecting me to clear it up for her. and she never gets the blame. i mean never. the next thing i know is mummy screaming at me saying i'v left dishes around. for heavens sake, sometimes its obvious i'm not the one because i'v already had lunch outside. yet in mummy's eyes everything is me. hanah is the angel with no faults.
another thing, the study table. just about 4months ago the both of us quite had enough of each other as we were sharing the study table and her stuff would always end up occupying 3/4 of the table. so we divided the table into half. i was to keep my side clean while she keep hers. all these while i'v been clearing up maing sure my table is not in a mess. but once i lift my eyes to look over at her side, its filled with papers stacked so high it blocks my view of the window. when i tell her nicely, hanah can you please clear your table. she answers , its not your side why should you care. wtf. this is why now i dont even give a hoot if there are insects crawling all over her table, or snakes sleeping on her chair.
if i were to go on about her i think i will never end.
comparing the times in taiwan and now. i cannot believe things has changed so much. we were the perfect sisters in taiwan. making sure we each had enough to eat, when i fell sick she gave up her seats for me. and now everything is the complete opposite. is singapore really hating me or is my sister some disgusting split personality person.
all i know is i cannot believe we are of the same genes.

ALL HAIL SARAH THE GREAT!! SHE'S BACK!!
hah wadev. anyway i enjyed taiwan tremendously. and now i wish i never had to leave taiwan. )= it was so trouble free and nice. plus the people there are 100% polite and very friendly! the only bummer was i fell sick .


ok so for those who think all my details on my taiwan trip will be a total bore for u can just ignore this post.
oh! F.Y.I all the pics i took will not be posted in this post cox the digi cam is missing!! and the ones taken with mummy's fone is in her computer so ya. wait for the pictures!!

ok great now mummys chasing me to bed!!! i havent even finished 1/10 of my post wtf!!! nvm i'll continue tml morning. goodnite starshine(=