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the play yest was quite ok.. but i think pastor dominique was doing too much talking.. i knew where he was coming from .. from i got kindda boring..

then we went back to tuayi's house to get ready for dinner.. and we were cracking our heads on where to go for dinner. decided on marche.

when uncle richard got home, he put down his work stuff and off we went!

dinner was good.. had crayfish a baked potato and for dessert mixed berry crepe.

by the time we were leaving it was already 10.30pm and so tuayi offered to fetch hannah to yiyi's place. and i was left all alone at home.. blooping blopper. scary la.
then had competition in the morning where it al went wrong.


i'm feeling rotten la. i'v upset 4 people.
i put in all my best for the throw and yet didnt cross over the qualifications. i felt like a marshmallow out there. :( then mrs wong asked me if i still wanted to continue with nationals. cox at the rte i'm going i doesnt seem like i can make it.. i could'nt look at her la. it was so shameful. so much for the last 3 yrs.. at least i'v got time to sort it out. SORRY MRS WONG.

next, at homecoming , as i was busy frying ice-cream. someone must have put their filthy hands into my bag and stolen my wallet. all my savings and cash in there. my heart just felt numb the moinute i realized it was missing la. i'v upset mummy over this. being the careless me. SORRY MUMMY. and because of the loss of my wallet, i had to cancel with my darling out outing. and this is the second time. SORRY MAYLIN.
and lastly i'v upset myself completely. by proving what an absolute rotten person i actually am.
and here i apologize to myself.

sarah, i'm sorry for upseting you in all aspects.
i'm sorry for my false hopes.
i'm sorry for making sucha big deal out of everything.
i'll try to change.. i PROMISE SORRY SARAH
maybe i dont deserve a sorry

have i said sorry so many times. so much so it has lost its meaning?







you'v dissapointed me yesterday.
i expected so much more.
maybe you thought the small gestures counted.
no. you'v truely let me down.
my eyes are played




melanie and shauna! thank you so much!