Thursday, May 11, 2006
there you go again.leaving me in the lurk.what do i do?POA was horrible!! i think i'll be happy if i get 10/100. yup. that bad.
i couldnt balance the fucking accounts!!
MATH was hard as well. bah! well i hope i pass !
SS i couldnt concentrate!!!
GEOG was ok i guess.
CHEM. was quite easy la. but i doubt i can make it.
see. all my negative
ness. things are not going well.
everything's messed up. like wad a said.
my peace makers on vacation right now. and i have no i dea when its coming back.
fuckitfuckitfuckitexams are over!!!!stress is not over!!happy i am. but thats it. i dont feel like screaming i dont feel like celebrating.
whats wrong with me? this time yesterday i was so awaiting this moment. and now, i dont treasure it.
now i'm patiantly waiting for my wonka's call and i'm outta the house!
might be meeting my babes afterwards too.
message to myself:sarah. wads ur problem?just yesterday you were looking forward to the fun you were gonna have today. and now your completely opposing what you felt.why? wads wrong?believe in what you believe. dont go jumping into conclusions.you'v been doing that alot. just remember from experiance.it always comes back to you.then you realize youv wasted your tears. things are not as bad as you expected them to be.sarah get over it.yes i know. i'm not myself. i know i'm sucha pain.but i cant help it.gah. everytime i break down i feel so lame.wads up with me? i dont know.i do want an answer though. why do i have to be the one suffering?why am i invisible?i know it came back to me.but what if it doesnt this time?i try not to jump into conclusions. but sometimes thats what it seems to be. STOP IT SARAH STOP IT!
sarah writes/ 5/11/2006 10:40:00 AM
