i'll be staying up to watch the germany vs italy match tonight. (= germany please do me proud. ps: mel i love you!! thanks for the klose thing!!
what do i do? i'm so stressed up with life right now. i keep giving hints to mummy telling her how much i wish for a daddy. yet all she tells me is. easier said then done. i tell her i dont mind step siblings but she says. its not easy to get along. why? why not!? i havent even tried it. this might be the stepping stone to bigger things. this might be were i find my true family. why wont you give it a go? i'm starting to get so jealous of everyone with a father. theres only this much to the brim of the cup. and i think i'm overflowing. why cant we have a decent conversation about us starting a new family? i know i'm being bloody selfish. but what can i do? i'm in serious need for more care and attention. even if it means you having to share your love with other children. yet the more i think the more complex it becomes. its true. what if there is no way this can work out? what if what seemed to me to be the right thing turns out to be a complete disaster. nothing goes right in my life. sometimes i know im just kidding myself. diverting all my problems to another situation. so now i'm so confused. i dont know which of my worries is really tearing me up. 1) is mummy really the case? do i really care that much for a normal family? to some extend yes. but the second pointer seems more applicable. 2) or is this misery really about prince charming of my love life?does he really mean that much to me?i'm afraid so. every free omet is dedicated to him. and all i stand is a friend to him. a pathetic friend. how am i gonna carry on living life this way? taking brave steps into the scary world. facing more than i can look at. i always have this heavy heart whenever i think bout him. cox i know things will never work out the way i want them to. i-m-p-o-s-s-i-b-l-e. or does pointer 3 seem to be a more student like worry which would be correct for me 3) trainings been becoming bad to worse. mrs wong is literaly letting me rot. i know i'm not putting in effort. but she's not pushing me! and that drains all my hopes. today seemed to mark the end of trackandfield in xinmin forever.and all i can do is to fold my arms and watch this cca collapse. all these things i guess are building up slowly in me. and i know someday soon i'll explode. die of misery.
thats the end of me. goodbye world
sarah writes/ 7/04/2006 07:44:00 PM
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my name is sarah
i love talking
im like any human being in this world
i brought joy to this world on 25 december 1991
i like to laugh
i dont like to cry
i love god
i love everyone important to me
and most importantly i love myself
