the scariest thing on earth. you dont know what would happen the next second. whether it would be good or bad.
all i really want now is to be able to pass these last 2 days without breaking down as much as i did today. i dread time. i dread school i dread you. today has been one of the worst days of my life. i passed each second with my heart being crashed and invaded one too many times. honestly wtf do you take me for? some kind of toy you play around with? what? you use me as a sponge to absorb all you queries and worries then expect me to squeeze them out and not remember anything after that? your fucking messing me up now u asshole. think about it. i was a nice clean sponge. then had to absorb all your dirty water and clean you up. then when your cleaned and left with no stain, you squeeze your dirt out of me. sorry but the memories remians no matter wad. look at me now. i'm a fucking filty and disgusting peice of junk now. i'v had enough of these tortures. yes i'v tried soo many times to stop it. but it aint working man. when did this happen? i tot i had this secured with u. have i been to fucking hell naive? i dont think so. you made it seem i could trust you. you made it seem you were gonna be there for me to share my worries. i still remember that fucking sentance you said once upon a time. true to this day i dont know. maybe you think i would just let it go like that. well face it asshole. NO. i am not gonna let you make use of me. all these while i'v kept quite and prayed you would someday realize.i'v dropped too many tears for you. how long are you gonna make me fucking do this.
sarah writes/ 8/29/2006 08:37:00 PM
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my name is sarah
i love talking
im like any human being in this world
i brought joy to this world on 25 december 1991
i like to laugh
i dont like to cry
i love god
i love everyone important to me
and most importantly i love myself
