Monday, September 11, 2006
all i need is one last blow. then its off to the heavens i go. (or maybe hell)to start things off. SCREW FUCKING MSN. ok not that i dont appreciate the wonderful programme that connects us humans through words. but anyway. msn was screwed about 1/2 an hour ago.
6.50pm?? sumthing like that. tried signing in at least 5 times b4 msn finally decided to accept my attempts to sign in. to my surprise, there were very very
very little people online. thus showing the msn problem did not only occur on my side.
and because of this _ ____ ____ __ ______ ___. annoying my blanks. i know. but i cant poosibly tell u my secret. i'm now hopelessly awaiting ______ ___ __ ____ ______. but i doubt it would happen. wtf.
ok waking up was fine for me since i was kinda looking forward to seeing my friends in school. but the walk to the bus stop was terribly hot and that fucking spoilt my mood.
then during pe got told off by that bitch mr gabrial tay again. ok i know he's a guy, but he doesnt even qualify to be called a jerk. bitch sounds like a more fitting noun to describe him. well that spoilt my day enough. felt rotten all through the day..
after school went lunching with
wenyi,
pooty and
meijun.
kfc.
then after that went for tution.. on the bus did alot alot alot of thinking. but nothing came to terms. infact i feel worse now.
the only thing that cheered me up was the heartious talk about a topic with momo bobo ragu azmail and joni..its already so painful that it was silent all morning. me looking forward to today was a total mistake.all through the day i felt like a complete idiot. had i not turned around at that point of time, i may not be hurting as much as i am now. yes, i would be oblivious to the fact that that scene had to occur. but at least i would not be so affected by it. the moment i turned around i just wished i never did. my soul left my body. it was the most painful moment of these 7 months.there was never once in these period of you did i never want to look at you again. but today, i just wished you never existed. i wished that i never even liked you. for this once, i wished i could just stay at home and be lonely. i dont care if i have no love. i'd rather live a simple life just devoting al the love i have to memeME. i understand it was just a communication between friends. but that left me wondering wad i am to you. why din you bother with me. the only thing that broke our silence was school work as usual. but heeeecccckkkkkkkk wad are you doing?? is it out of respect or do u honestly not bother about me anymore. your driving me nuts. i need need NEED you to know. come and cure me .
WOULD ANYONE PLEASE COME UP WITH A KNIFE AND STAB IT INTO MY HEART. I'LL BE VERY GRATEFUL. THANK YOU.
sarah writes/ 9/11/2006 07:21:00 PM
