everything i dreaded has come true. i thought i was just being plain foolish. i thought i could trust. but the tears i shed over tha last 2 days has totally proven me wrong. though i never expected things to tuen out this nasty. for months we talked.. about anything under the sun. each time i sign on, constant fear grew in me. i was afraid you'd keep silent. but you didnt. that was what urged me on. that was what kept me from giving up. yet now, things turn out this way. so youv cosied yourself with someone else. finding ways to avoid me yet giving hope at the same time. what is this? just give me a yes or a no. i refuse in betweens. i'v decided the end is coming. no more fast beating hearts, no more hopes for something better. youv showed me you'v had enough of me as a friend. and that hurt me enough. goodbye. though i dont know how long it will take for it to finally activate. i'm going back to where i belong. lonely, alone, retarded. i know this means i'm losing, but thats what i have to do instead of getting hurt even deeper. time will heal the wounds. but i know the scars will still remain. the next few weeks are gonna hurt like fuck
sarah writes/ 9/28/2006 08:09:00 PM
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my name is sarah
i love talking
im like any human being in this world
i brought joy to this world on 25 december 1991
i like to laugh
i dont like to cry
i love god
i love everyone important to me
and most importantly i love myself
